“LimbO StatE”
I dOnt knOw why Im fEeliNg this way agaiN. Like I was in a middle of a tuNneL withOut soMe liGht to guidE me thrOugh. I doNt knOw how I gOt stuckEd therE and I doNt knOw the way oUt. But Im quitE surE that there’s sOmethiNg iN it tHat kEpt oN hOldiNg mE tO gO oUt. I feEl hOpeless and pathEtic. I doNt knOw hOw tO start mOviNg and how tO do thE thIngs I supposEd to do. Im worriEd oN sometHiNg that Im nOt surE that wilL gOing to happeN. Im agitatEd oN thE futUrE withOut chEckIng my own self tOday. I kNow i shOuld moVe and takE actiOns. But thE problEm is how??? I dont evEn knOw what my problEm was. I feLt as if thE whole world was my problem evEn if its nOt. I always creatE my owN endiNg and scEnEs in my miNd. I doNt know whats happEniNg in mE. Im in a Limbo state, cauGht in bEtweEn, aNd thE onLy way Out was stilL a mystery to be solVe. Im thE onLy onE whO caN fiNd it and I hopE that I wilL fiNd it soOn.
February 10th, 2009 at 4:01 am
“its not the pain that have weakened, it is as if i grew stronger to bear it” -b.s